:: Venting Insanity ::

:: Friday, April 30, 2004 ::

number two
(1) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says.: "...point of view -- whether to take vitamins..."

(2) Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: Dad's stereo system

(3) What is the last thing you watched on TV?: Trigun

(4) WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is.: 4 am

(5) Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 3:53 am

(6) With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: The refridgerator humming in the kitchen and my cat snoring on the couch next to me

(7) When did you last step outside? What were you doing?: coming home from class

(8) Before you came to this website, what did you look at?: Hmm... Well... I'm downloading AMV's from WinMX. I was watching a really cool Inuyasha AMV to "The Immortals" from Mortal Kombat

(9) what are you wearing?: my pijamas... if you call cotton exercise pants and a long sleeved tee pijamas... it's what I sleep in

(10) Did you dream last night?: no... not that I remember anyway

(11) When did you last laugh?: for real? Tho' we did a lot of laughing in math about asparagus making your pee smell (don't ask)

(12) What is on the walls of the room you are in?: one wall has wallpaper on it... but we don't have pictures up anymore now that we have the giant entertainment center

(13) Seen anything weird lately?: what counts as weird? How about the police being called in by the crazy woman in number 7 for the umpteenth time this year?

(14) What do you think of this quiz?: Umm... like all the other ones I've taken

(15) What is the last film you saw?: In a theatre... Hellboy... at home... Johnny English

(16) If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? does paying off school loans count?

(17) Tell me something about you that I don't know.: There's a reason you don't know it...

(18) If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?: That's a tough question... requires more thought than I'm capable of giving at 4 am...

(19) Do you like to dance? Yes... but I hate dance clubs.

(20) George Bush: No comment for fear of alienating some friends...

(21[a]) Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: If it was completely up to me... Kendra Marie

(21[b]) Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: Again... completely up to me... I haven't thought about it. ^^;;

(22) Would you ever consider living abroad?: Possibly... but I like America, even with all its faults.

survey says
Three web sites that people may not know about
1) http://www.therealmonline.org (then again... if you're reading this, you probably know about it)
2) http://www.toonamiarsenal.com
3) http://www.geocities.com/kooshie77 (of course... that's my old one... ^^ but I don't get nearly enough traffic...)

Three visual artists I like
1) Claude Monet
2) The animators at Pixar
3) The animators that made Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within and Last Flight of the Osiris

Three books I like
1) The Forgotten Realms books about Drzzt the Drow
2) Anything by L.M. Montgomery
3) Almost anything by Anne McCaffery

Three women that belong on Mount Rushmore
1) Marie Curie
2) Abigail Adams (for putting up with her husband, John... ~_^)
3) Me! NOT!

Three corporations that should be destroyed
1) Microsoft
2) Apple
3) Time Warner

Three people (living or dead) to invite to my dream dinner party
1)
2)
3)
(I have no clue... why can't I pick more than three???)

Three lines about me (haiku)
Negativity
Rules my world. I can't go back
To what I once was.

today's code word... negativity
Yeah... I'm going nuts. All people do is complain lately. I didn't even go to work today because I just didn't think I'd be able to handle it. I already have two full days in... I don't know if I can work more than five more hours this week.

Yeah... Barbara went down to Financial Aid and got me approved for more money in my account for Work Study. I'm cool with that... Lord knows I need the extra cash. But, the complaining and negativity around that school lately are just killing me. I can't wait until the SIFE nationals are over.

Of course, I'm not even elected, yet, and already I'm doing a ton of work for the SGA. Elections closed today. In a way, I hope DeAnne gets President... or Frank gets Vice President. Then again, I'll probably stick around for another position come the rest of the elections in September if I don't get President.

{{sigh}}

Why do I do this to myself?

can't sleep?
Yeah... as you can see... it's rediculously early in the morning and I'm blogging. My sleep patterns are screwed up again. I seriously need to get rid of some of this stress. I'm still blah... still annoyed at everyone... still just... GAH. It's one of the reasons I'm avoiding Messenger programs... I can't deal right now. I'm too touchy and I don't want to piss people off... or get pissed off, for that matter.

I might say something I'll regret.

back to tutoring
Barbara's bending the rules a bit. I've got another student I need to get caught up by the end of the semester... which is next week. Go figure. I was supposed to meet him today, but I didn't go in. I just couldn't do it. I don't like the way I'm feeling lately. I've been so fake.

smile and nod
Sometimes I wish I wasn't afraid to show people how I really feel. Yet, I feel like I always have to be upbeat and outgoing. It's not how I feel... I don't want to be upbeat and outgoing... but it's how I act. Otherwise, I get too many questions. I hate questions. I don't like talking to people about what I'm feeling and I hate when they ask me, "Are you sure nothing's wrong?"

I wish they'd leave me alone, sometimes.

So, I pretend everything's okay.

Hmm... maybe that's why I like Duo so much...

snapple "real fact" #2
Animals that lay eggs don't have belly buttons.

:: Sunday, April 25, 2004 ::

tired
My candle burns at both ends
It will not last the night.
But ah my foes, and oh my friends,
It gives a lovely light.

~"1st Fig", Edna St. Vincent Millay.

snapple "real fact" #129
Mosquitos have 47 teeth.