:: Venting Insanity ::

:: Saturday, July 26, 2003 ::

sigh
I'm so tired. It's been way too long since I had a full time job.

how long??
I found out the other day that it'll take six months for my benefits to kick in. SIX MONTHS!!! I told Ken about my concerns in that department and he said, "I'll see what I can do, but, in the meantime, just try not to get sick." I don't know if he was joking, but I said it was a good thing that I got the mono last year already. He sort of laughed.

do i really look that stupid?
And if Diane talks down to me one more time, I'm going to scream. I think I'm going to have to prove to this woman that I'm not as stupid as she treats me. I'm >thisclose< to knocking her senseless.

I asked her to clarify some of Ken's sloppy handwriting yesterday and she proceeded to explain the entire letter to me again like I didn't understand the first one I had done. I nearly died. She makes me feel like I'm really stupid or something. I know I understand it, and I keep saying that I understand it, but she just keeps explaining. It's making me crazy.

She also stands there and tells me every step I have to take to open a file. Like I don't know how. Just tell me the filename and where it's located. I used to work as a software QA person for Nortel. I'm one semester away from my 2 year Computer Information Systems degree. I know how to open a stupid file in Word, lady.

wishing there was a better way
I just wish there was a better way to do some of the stuff they do. I was talking about it with Charity and Diane yesterday. Diane seems to slowly be coming to the realization that I'm pretty computer literate. I started talking databases and tables, and it looked like she really didn't understand me completely. I felt a bit better at that point, since it was after the handwriting incident. That, and I showed them I can type. I can finish a letter in record time, and I just killed the new liturature packet letters we sent out last night.

I had better be getting a raise after my first evaluation. I don't think any of them expected me to be what I am. Between that and the offers I gave to Ken and Patrick about my HTML and computer skills, I hope I get something out of this.

unexpected words
I'm not usually like this. I'm usually the person who doubts herself and has to have other people tell her she's better than she thinks. But, I *know* I'm better than Diane seems to think. I just hope she realizes it before I start to get to the point where I feel like I really am that stupid. If I hear it too often, I start to believe it.

party time
Mom wants me to come with her to Donna's again tomorrow. She's giving a Home & Garden Party tomorrow. She's the seller, though, not the host. What she's doing is having people over with a raffle. The winner of the raffle is the "host" and gets all the host bonuses. Cool, right?

as for tonight
Estelle called. I'm debating going over. We'll see how I feel. I have a bit of a headache and I'm still tired, so going out isn't exactly the first thing on my mind. Plus, I have no idea what's going on dinnerwise. I'd rather not go out and spend the money, and I think my parents are planning something for three not two. I also have to make sure my laundry's finished. If it's not, Mom will have a cow if she can't do hers. {{sigh}}

updates
As you noticed, my navcolumn is a lot shorter. If you check the top, I moved all the extra links off to another page. There's a link up there where you can still get to all of them, so don't worry. No one got de-linked. You've just all been moved to another page for easier maintenance.

I also have to update my quizzes... That's going to be a pain. I haven't done it in ages.

comic blues
I've been stuck on my comic. I think part of it is because I'm working. However, as I've read through archives, I've noticed that I'm not the only artist to have moments of writer's block. Hence, having lots of characters for separate storylines and having those occasional instances of filler pages. I'm trying to think of ways to do that now. ^^;;

I also have to start developing my characters more. While the first few pages aren't really important to having details on the characters, as I go along, people are going to want to know more. I'm going to have to come up with some good character page pics. I need a logo, too. {{sigh}}

Too much to do.

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