:: Venting Insanity ::

:: Thursday, February 13, 2003 ::

you are that, so i'll treat you like this
We did a 'social exercise' in class today. We had to wear party hats with a saying on them. We didn't know what the sayings were that we had on our own heads, but each person had to treat us like that saying was how they felt about us. It basically was meant to show us how people can be judgemental and illustrate how important a first impression is. Also, we discussed how being treated like we were made us feel and discussed possible ways to combat it without burning bridges.

missing students
Well, almost all my math students showed up today, Rob, James, and Keisha. Tommy wasn't there. However, Evelyn didn't show again. x.x I'm beginning to wonder if everything is alright. If she didn't want tutoring anymore, she should have called me. But, I'm a tutor... it's not my job to keep her in line. I'm not a professor, and $5/hr sure as heck isn't enough to warrant me calling someone. If she doesn't show next week, I might call her, though.

eye candy withdrawal
And, another case in the missing student department, Eye Candy from math disappeared. {{sobs}} He was so cute!!!! I'd really hoped he'd want tutoring, but... {{sighs}} I know he's a computer major, too, so maybe I'll see him in another class. *_*

be vewy vewy quiet, i'm out hunting jobs
There's a job fair tomorrow. I don't know if I should bother going in case they're not hiring in my field. I cannot repeat enough how discouraging it is to walk into a job fair not knowing it's specialized for a particular field and keep being told, "We're not hiring for that kind of position right now." It's majorly harsh to deal with and extremely discouraging. And with the huge job hunting high I've been on for the past few weeks, I'm actually nervous about going and having that high come crashing down. With two interviews in the past two weeks, I seriously don't want to lose my momentum. I'm doing good!

attack of the killer brain fart
And I still can't remember the awesome thought that I had earlier. Four IM conversations just like totally killed my thought process. Not to mention all the math I did at school, remembering an awesome blog topic was not exactly a priority.

work work work
Homework!!!! x.x {{dies}} I am swamped! And, I have to admit it, I'm a bit behind on my Career Development Portfolio. I have some major work to do tomorrow between chores and phone calls. I have to put out line calls for Friday night's Rainbow meeting, telling people that it's mock Initiation, Elections, and Installation. I have to clean up in the kitchen. I have to finish my laundry. I have to balance my poor sickly checkbook. I have to clean up in my room. I have to vaccuum. I have to do my math homework, my Career Development Portfolio, and work on a presentation for school. x.x {{dies again}} I can't believe how much I have to do.

job stuff
Plus, I also want to catch Rob about the web job. I didn't get a chance to call the woman at SUNY SB that I sent in my resume, cover letter, and application, but I sent that out last Friday, so I'm assuming she got it. I plan on getting back to NBTY by Monday. Maybe I'll go through the next step of the interview process there. I don't want to put it off too long and lose the chance if some of these other things don't work out.

re-read
Wow... I'm obsessed about finding a job. It's amazing how motivating lack of $$$ can be. It was one thing with lack of health insurance, but now I don't have any money to pay my regular bills or go out and have fun. Figures, right?

My credit is so shot if I keep this up. O.O;;;

positive thinking
But, Brigid handed out more affirmations in class today. Things we can say to ourselves to make us feel better. {{sighs}} I guess I should have brought in that blank tape for a copy of the meditation thing... ^^;;;

yay-ness for clique-ness
My application to Soul Mate was accepted and Duo is officially mine! *_* Still waiting on the others... {{sighs}} Some of them won't tell you if your application is rejected, just that you have to try again. I don't know. Maybe I'll take them off someday... I just like the little graphics. ^_^;;;